A Dream to Cherish....

Though not for real, but she visited me in my dreams last night... I sailed on cloud nine when my sister knocked on my bathroom door, "Someone is here to see you" she yelled... "Who is it".... I yelled back... "Someone called XXXXXX".... "ask her to wait I will be down".... It was bliss when I heard that name.... Wrapping a towel I ran down to receive her...

I could only see a blur image of hers... am I going blind or something... I realised, it was because of the refraction of vision caused due to tear drops all ready to pounce out.....wiped my eyes and cleared my vision...

There stood an Angel waiting to see me... In white churidhars she stood there, God she is so beautiful... I appreciate the afforts you had put in to make a masterpiece... She had the most pleasing smile that I had ever seen complemented by prettiest lips...

Wished her, spoke to her, showed her around... kissed her good bye.... that was it.. but atleast, though in dream, she paid me a homage... and Love her for that....

Its your choice

"You Had your choice to make but you could have atleast replied"

She was adamant, she was not ready to budge, I messaged her apologising, I was really sorry but she was annoyed... She did not reply... I lost her once and for alll.... She would never be mine any more... Itzzz probably my friendzz who interfered got her pissed off on me... I did not want them to.. but I could not help it... they were just trying to be nice to me... But I should have resisted more...

I, should have spoken to her.. she was so reluctant to speak to me, I could have explained but she was so angry she wouldnt talk to me for sure.... I messed it up and I would never have a second chance for sure... She would never be mine for sure... My dream castle is bulldozed for sure.... I am sad... and am feeling bad... FOR SURE

I should have tried.. tried a little harder.. probably she would have listened.. but now she wont.. Its tooo late... I know and would repent it for life time... she did not accept... she had her own choice but aleast..

"She could have replied"

Angel of my Desire!!!

She came like a blizzard,
Got my heart to freeze
she laid a bed of roses
Then settled like a breeze.

With a picture in her hand,
Over the flower bed she walked
When she reached my heart
On the door of it she knocked

I opened up the door
It was freezing out, to death,
An angel was there standing
She gave me what she hath.

I asked her whence she come from,
She didn’t stay to talk,
She turned around and moved away
Thence she continued her walk.

She disappeared in dark,
Then I looked at what I had,
It was a picture of an angel,
I have never felt so glad.

She had eyes, so beautiful,
It was so expressive and gay,
black like the eternal darkness,
a moonless night in month of may.

Lips were the tender petals of rose
Just out of their bud they bloomed
In a tad of attractive curve
Perfectly they roomed.

A small shiny nose
Perfect symmetric in place,
It was more like a jewel
On her pretty face.

She was so fair and beautiful,So delicate,
could be stained by my words
She was a celestial Angel
Dearest to the almighty, the Gods.

I am such a fool,
I fell in Love with her,
God please don’t punish me,
Please don’t throw me to the LER…

She would be like a flower,
In my garden of Love,
She would never know what pain is,
I would have, all of them tow.

God! give her to me,
I would treasure her like a treasure,
Happiness is what she will have always,
Happiness that even you can’t measure.

Dedicated to the Girl of my Dreams….

My Quarantine

Great News..... I have an announcement to make... This 7th Day of October 2009 Wednesday, I added another one to the list of my quarantines... I am really really pleased with myself. I take it as a great achievement. It was a difficult decision to make but I had to do it for sure. Very selective few gets this opportunity to be lucky enough to be isolated by me. Only if someone is desperate and cant live without being quarantined is when I allow them to be added to the list. You should be proud My Dear that you have crawled through my emotions to find yourself a place in the list. Its a great achievement and you can boast about it, its like a life time achievement award. Great job and keep it up.

However just to check how many are there in the list I clicked the button called my quarantines, it would be fun just to go over and take a look at the list and bring back the incident how these lucky people landed up there, from your unconscious self back to consciousness. To my depair, I hoped it to be filled with pictures, to my sheer astonishment, there is only one there, the one that I added today......

How can this be, this means that over these years I found only one whom I have isolated from me. That's amazing, how is this possible, some system error it seems. I refreshed again the result was same, I rebooted and checked but to my disappointment the result was the same. There is no system error. This shouldn't be so, I enquired, searched every nook and corner to find someone if I have missed.. I was deperate, but I dashed my hopes, there was no one else....

Probably because I am a joker and a factor of people's amusement. I dont have feelings because I have to sport a look that would amuse people. I cannot have feelings because I should be making people laugh through my acts and for which however hurt you might be you will have to sport a look that would be amusing. Try and sport that you are cool for kids to be entertained. Life had his toll on me and made me one joker. And my quarantine gave me this revelation. Thanks to my quarantine for making me sad I learnt a new feeling today probably thats why I started with my new list of quarantines. Today was the day of realisation, what people think about you, what do they feel about you, how they change colors like chame-leon, how they are not what they make you feel they are.....

Thanks for this revelation I would try to change, to change for my good, to change that people refrain from looking at me as a joker anymore, to change to be able to add more to the list of my quarantines.......

Heartfelt Thanks To MY FIRST QUARANTINE....

Best Place to Die

Last night I dreamt of her,
My Sentence was crying over a corpse,
She made him lay in her lap,
He was in his most blissful nap.

Than I looked close to see who was he,
To my amazement that he was me,
She stabbed him with his love, is what I heard people say,
I was dead but still I looked so gay.

My heart was bleeding, thats where she aimed,
She stabbed it straight, she had it lamed,
Damoiselle didnt realize what she was doing,
She was trying to wake me but I wasnt moving.

Each breath I took on the path of my death,
Bliss is what I felt, pain is just myth,
My damsel was crying, why did I make her cry,
But to tell you, for me, her lap was the Best Place to Die.......