Soul Thieves

A Weird feeling this morning, was not feeling well, an upset stomach was the reason. Around 4:44 am I got a missed call from my Wife I replied, woke up went to loo downloaded and got back into bed. Stomach was really bad so I smsed my Boss around 6:08 am that I might not come to office today or might come late. Woke Joy up and told him I would not be coming to office, he was insisting on me coming to office, he was of the opinion that they wont let me sleep and would disturb me throughout the day. I repented and slept.

Around 6:45 when Joy was out of bath I could smell this sweet smell of Medimix and Yardley's Gentlemen, a real sweet smell something that made me feel really good. I wanted to wake up but I could not open my eyes. I tried I could slightly open and could see Joy like a shadow. I did not feel anything weird than, probably because I was in deep sleep. But I could hear him open the door, talk to the neighbours, take shoe from the shoe rack etc. 

Than there was silence, pin drop silence, than strangely I started hearing drums play it was distant but I could hear it clearly, like something was approaching me. I could feel like I am trying to get up but I could not, I tried hard, I could feel like me standing up but my body still in bed and pulling me back towards it, I could feel me getting up leaving my body behind and than the gravitational kind of pull pulling me back towards and into the body again. I wanted to go but my Body was adamant not to leave me. This happened several times. I was awake but still asleep. I could see the stuff in my room but I wasnt awake. I was confused am I sleeping or  awake. I forced myself to open my eyes if I am sleeping but I felt like I wasn't, so the efforts were unfruitful. At last I tired calling Amma Amma, Joy Joy, I was trying to shout but I could feel like my voice were stuck, they refused to come out.

Than at last out of sheer desperation I forced myself to wake up calling out Amma loudly, I was scared I didnt want to leave, I thought of my Chakkaraa (my Wife), and my life ahead with her, and forced so hard that I rose from my bed and this time with my body. What a weird morning, I am still confused whether I was dreaming or this was really happening. If it was real.. than some thieves were trying to steal my soul......

Another One Down....

Today I flunked another driving Test. This was the third one, though I should be sad about it, I ain't. This time I had my Wife by my side encouraging me, Before test she was like:

-- Don't take tension chakkare. Its all gonna be fine. I am praying for you, its for us that you would be taking this test.. dont you worry.. God will always be there with you. Do welll...

After Test she was like:

-- Its Ok muthe... Don't be sad my Chakkarakuttaa... sometimes God, jealous of our love for each other might deliberately test us, we will live up to all the tests that God throws at us and come over it together... God tired of our efforts to pass might pass us at-last. So don't you worry we will fight it together.

These encouraging words worked wonders for me and although I should have been sad is not so sad any more.. I would try again next month first week... and this time GOD will have to pass me...

Thankyou Chakkarey I LOVE YOU.....

But It's You That He Loves....

It isn’t your hair, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your eyes, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your nose, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your lips, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your face, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your ears, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your neck, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your shoulders, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your elbows, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your wrist, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your palm, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your fingers, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your hands, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your bosom, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your belly, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn't your waist, but it's you that he Loves,

It isn’t your hips, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your thighs, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your knees, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your toes, but it’s you that he Loves,

It isn’t your legs, but it’s you that he Loves,

He loves you as a whole and not in part,

He loves you from his soul and not just from his heart.

His Emotional Elation.............

He was........................

 Depressed, Deprived, Dejected, Destroyed, Destructed, Damaged, Deluded,   Dashed, Doused, Drowned, Dowsed, Dawned, Dulled, Damned, Desperate, Dared, Deceived & Doomed.....

But now He is..............

Beguiled, Charmed, Delighted, Elated, Exultant, Excited, Ecstatic, Enraptured, Enchanted, Enthralled, Entranced, Fascinated, Gladdened, Happy, Healthy, Hypnotised, Jubilant, Loved, Liked, Lusted, Longed, Mesmerised, Rejoiced, Rhapsodic, Spell Bound, Triumphant, & Yearned…..

Melancholic Day…. Friday the 3rd June 2011…

He longed for her, she is there in India, and he is here in UAE. He missed her and wanted her to be with him. Tears rolled down his cheeks remembering her, and that’s the moment when he realized how much he loved her and how much he wanted her to be with him. Took his phone and dialed her to talk, she picked. But he felt like a huge lump of sadness was stuck in his throat and was suppressing his voice, he could not talk. His words were stuck in his throat he could barely speak to her, and he did not want her to know how devastated he was. Suppressing his emotional turmoil, he forced himself to talk to her and talk to her as if nothing’s wrong.

They spoke for over one and a half hour, and that was indeed relieving for him. He felt as if she was lying by his side resting her head on his arm, he could feel her warm breath on his chest. Fiddling with his chest hair she was humming her favourite song, it was Divine… The feeling was ecstatic and he was elated as he crawled from the bitter truth of this real world to the world of his imagination where he with his wife by his side they were engrossed in divinely love for each other.... for ever and ever and ever till eternity....